❝┊rxghteousman

Used t'be, huh?

Words don’t come easily from Dean’s
mouth to a virtual stranger’s ears, and
yet he doesn’t quite find the angel
completely unknown. Sure, the tie,
trenchcoat, eyes with a gaze that seems
too worn for any man’s —- that alone,
and far more, makes Castiel something
of an enigma, a puzzle Dean has yet
to solve, an existentially world-shattering
question mark across his conciousness,
against every belief he’s ever had —
shattering what he’d known, bringing
to thought too much.

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That doesn’t mean, however, that this
( admittedly ) bizarre moment of frailty
is something he’ll merely bat an eye
at, existential questions from primordial
beings ( whether they’ve saved your
ass too many times or not ) aren’t
exactly comforting in the grand scheme
of things. Still, Dean hasn’t exactly
been used to comforting.

Y'still got all your mojo an’ stuff, right?

      it was never a question of GRACE,

    it was one of whether he was doing god’s work,
    truly, or if the choices—— the answers he swore
    he possessed were written into the play of life.
    and it was for once that the angel did not know..
    was it a masquerade if the liar believed? pretense
    when an impostor was BLINDED from their own
    halo’s light?

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      have you ever felt LOST?

          ..and strayed from your path like a dog in the
    dark, with empty faith and sin stained wings, and
    what holiness was left to show the way?